Wednesday 29 January 2014

Here's another one by Sarah Kay and by god, it's the most beautiful piece of poetry there ever will be.


 “When they bombed Hiroshima, the explosion formed a mini-supernova, so every living animal, human or plant that received direct contact with the rays from that sun was instantly turned to ash. 

And what was left of the city soon followed. The long-lasting damage of nuclear radiation caused an entire city and its population to turn into powder. 

When I was born, my mom says I looked around the whole hospital room with a stare that said, "This? I've done this before." She says I have old eyes.

When my Grandpa Genji died, I was only five years old, but I took my mom by the hand and told her, "Don't worry, he'll come back as a baby." 

And yet, for someone who's apparently done this already, I still haven't figured anything out yet. 

My knees still buckle every time I get on a stage. My self-confidence can be measured out in teaspoons mixed into my poetry, and it still always tastes funny in my mouth. 

But in Hiroshima, some people were wiped clean away, leaving only a wristwatch or a diary page. So no matter that I have inhibitions to fill all my pockets, I keep trying, hoping that one day I'll write a poem I can be proud to let sit in a museum exhibit as the only proof I existed. 

My parents named me Sarah, which is a biblical name. In the original story God told Sarah she could do something impossible and she laughed, because the first Sarah, she didn't know what to do with impossible. 

And me? Well, neither do I, but I see the impossible every day. Impossible is trying to connect in this world, trying to hold onto others while things are blowing up around you, knowing that while you're speaking, they aren't just waiting for their turn to talk -- they hear you. They feel exactly what you feel at the same time that you feel it. It's what I strive for every time I open my mouth -- that impossible connection. 

There's this piece of wall in Hiroshima that was completely burnt black by the radiation. But on the front step, a person who was sitting there blocked the rays from hitting the stone. The only thing left now is a permanent shadow of positive light. After the A bomb, specialists said it would take 75 years for the radiation damaged soil of Hiroshima City to ever grow anything again. But that spring, there were new buds popping up from the earth. 

When I meet you, in that moment, I'm no longer a part of your future. I start quickly becoming part of your past. But in that instant, I get to share your present. And you, you get to share mine. And that is the greatest present of all. 

So if you tell me I can do the impossible, I'll probably laugh at you. I don't know if I can change the world yet, because I don't know that much about it -- and I don't know that much about reincarnation either, but if you make me laugh hard enough, sometimes I forget what century I'm in. 

This isn't my first time here. This isn't my last time here. These aren't the last words I'll share. 

But just in case, I'm trying my hardest to get it right this time around.” 
― Sarah Kay

Monday 27 January 2014

B

Here's a poem that I absolutely love from the bottom of my heart. It's written by Sarah Kay.

B (If I Should Have a Daughter)

“If I should have a daughter…“Instead of “Mom”, she’s gonna call me “Point B.” Because that way, she knows that no matter what happens, at least she can always find her way to me. And I’m going to paint the solar system on the back of her hands so that she has to learn the entire universe before she can say “Oh, I know that like the back of my hand.”

She’s gonna learn that this life will hit you, hard, in the face, wait for you to get back up so it can kick you in the stomach. But getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air. There is hurt, here, that cannot be fixed by band-aids or poetry, so the first time she realizes that Wonder-woman isn't coming, I'll make sure she knows she doesn't have to wear the cape all by herself. Because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers, your hands will always be too small to catch all the pain you want to heal. Believe me, I've tried.

And “Baby,” I'll tell her “don't keep your nose up in the air like that, I know that trick, you're just smelling for smoke so you can follow the trail back to a burning house so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire to see if you can save him. Or else, find the boy who lit the fire in the first place to see if you can change him.”

But I know that she will anyway, so instead I'll always keep an extra supply of chocolate and rain boats nearby, ‘cause there is no heartbreak that chocolate can't fix. Okay, there’s a few heartbreaks chocolate can't fix. But that’s what the rain boots are for, because rain will wash away everything if you let it.

I want her to see the world through the underside of a glass bottom boat, to look through a magnifying glass at the galaxies that exist on the pinpoint of a human mind. Because that’s how my mom taught me. That there'll be days like this, “There'll be days like this my momma said” when you open your hands to catch and wind up with only blisters and bruises. When you step out of the phone booth and try to fly and the very people you wanna save are the ones standing on your cape. When your boots will fill with rain and you'll be up to your knees in disappointment and those are the very days you have all the more reason to say “thank you,” ‘cause there is nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it’s sent away.

You will put the “wind” in win some lose some, you will put the “star” in starting over and over, and no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute be sure your mind lands on the beauty of this funny place called life.

And yes, on a scale from one to over-trusting I am pretty damn naive but I want her to know that this world is made out of sugar. It can crumble so easily but don't be afraid to stick your tongue out and taste it.

“Baby,” I’ll tell her “remember your mama is a worrier but your papa is a warrior and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes who never stops asking for more.”

Remember that good things come in threes and so do bad things and always apologize when you've done something wrong but don't you ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining.

Your voice is small but don’t ever stop singing and when they finally hand you heartbreak, slip hatred and war under your doorstep and hand you hand-outs on street corners of cynicism and defeat, you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.” 
― Sarah Kay

I Wish I Could

I wish I could fill my entire house with books
So that wherever I go
Words lettered together track my progress
Page after paragraphs, chapters into the unforgivable silence
that greets a reader in the grips of epiphany.

I wish I could break out of my phone booth
and put on my cape
ready to save the world, the people
not limited by thoughts or images anymore

I wish I could talk to animals
and feel what really goes on in their cortex
Is it envy?
Or do they ostracize our idiosyncrasies?

I wish I could eat and share my sandwich with that boy whose mother forgot to pack his lunch because their house was on fire
I wish I could gather up that little girl, because her heart had been broken.
I wish rainbows and big round bubbles could mend relationships
and chocolate be the only medicine that could cure anything, even cancer and catracts

I wish I could give my energy to old people
hobbling along in their wake
And the happiness that greets me
when their stiff joints function like a bicycle
will provide me my energy which I gave away

I wish I could hunt down that little dog, lying in the forest with his leg oozing blood
and I wish I could put my hand on it and the cut would disappear
I wish I had John Coffey's skill
The life of a healer

I wish this world would look like a giant big red apple
to children and people and animals
So that way, we can always be reminded
At the first bite, it starts receding slowly
until only the seeds are left
ready to be planted into the soil, to give birth to new red apples
thus beginning life all over again

I wish this message be proclaimed by every parent, every teacher into the hearts of their children
Then maybe, just maybe
The world could be a better place after all.

HardShip poem

TAIL OF A FRIEND


I spelled Kitty F-R-I-E-N-D
With her tail in the air, she would pass me by
rubbing her body with my blue jeans
ensuring the relationship to be lasting
her fur contains something that sticks to me forever
and no matter where I go, she can always smell
and know I'm her person

I spelled Kitty F-A-M-I-L-Y
How true is it that cats incorporate themselves
into the bread of our mix
into the bindings of the blood that rages like fire
through our veins
but the blood she shared
ran deeper than any ocean or river
present on this planet

I spelled Kitty L-O-V-E
Spiralled on my pillow
I found her hair today
On my sweater, my notebook
It came as a shock
because I know she's gone
Her past still lingers
in this administrable air
That unheard meow hangs deeper 
as it radiates through my system

I spelled Kitty F-O-R-E-V-E-R
She had always been there
on my bed, in the garden, rolling in the sun
It feels empty
like the moon, hanging in the sky all by itself
the stars have somehow forgotten to accompany it
And I feel the moon looking at me
like it feels the same way I feel 

Sunday 26 January 2014

Think Tank

I feel my mind brimming, with ideas and thoughts I'm unable to write down on good, white paper. It's exploding, unstable like a plutonium waiting disaster. I'm widening my circles, broadening my horizons. Stepping out of the box is not so difficult, only the walls seem to restrict me into the inner ordinary paint. I refuse to blend in, with the colour emaciating in it's wake. But the voices that call, beckon from that box, are lit with the sepulchral glow of who am I? Am I just another person in the world, living today and dying tomorrow? A nobody? Overruled. Court in session, please be back after 2 minutes. 2 minutes is all it takes to summon the courage of my inner calling. It can be done. I am somebody, not faceless, not nameless. Not worthless. I can do it. The power of intellect is spitting out goblets from my grey matter, on the walls, reminding me, don't give up hope. The liquid runs clean, evaporating into the ambiance with slow and gradual osmosis as my hands grab the lid of the box and silence them forever.

Tuesday 21 January 2014

It's More Fun in 3D!

Since the past year, I have discovered a vice belonging to me. Yes! I am glued to 3D! Even though, only 3 movies, one of them being a cartoon have been passed before my eyes in double vision, I cannot wait to add a 4th one to the list. And a 5th and a 6th.......
Not being in a cinema before, the 3D effect totally wowed me and I felt like sitting there even when the lights started to come back on, not wanting to take off my ever-loving 3D glasses off from my face. The first movie being Ice Age was kind of (kind of?!) childish and short but last year I got to see Iron Man 3 and Man of Steel and I was so delirious! Even my sister who has a knack to turn everything into a "so what?" shared my euphoria and we both planned to see a really awesome movie in 3D now and then.
The thought of sitting in that cinema hall again with the floor booming away at the sound of the music is enough to make me weak at the knees. You could say I have a new crush now.
Being a huge glutton monster, I didn't (make that couldn't) make my eyes roam even an inch away from that marvelous screen. I was glued.
Recently, we saw Catching Fire, but it was in 2D. Bummer!

Sunday 19 January 2014

EARS

So I wrote a poem for my Dadima like last year and I found it just now! Pretty ducky huh?


It feels like being underwater
soaked in the pillow of the sea
The restless do not await me
The silence does not wake me
The fish swim around
ignoring the ripples I create


It is momentous
not a seaweed stirs
The dream catcher is asleep
His dreams in a bottle of jar
carried off to the sea
marooned on an island
a tiny paper reflected in the shards
Someone picks it, sand sparkling of it's edges

The paper slips easily through the fingers
moist from the sunbeams 
dancing on it's surface

And the reader reads
and the paper conveys
That all is not lost
neither the universe will split
into tiny pieces

Pieces that get lodged
into someones heart
reproducing wickedness
benign from the start

And some find their way
into someones eye
blinding the light reflecting the pupil

While some shards of glass rove around
they pass towards into someones ears
snatching the life of music
or the sound of motor cars,
depriving the listener 
from the sound bars

The crying of their grandchildren
they cannot listen
For every time they pick up the infant
they could silence it no more.